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It sucks that you only liked me
When I was I was tying to die
I got healthy I got clean
But you miss the broken me
I’m sorry that I can’t do drugs with you anymore,
For a thousand nights over 10 years
You watched me try to disappear
You didn’t say a thing
You didn’t ask if I was ok
I’m sorry that I can’t do drugs with you anymore
Things of changed a lot this year
But why would we want them to stay the same,
Everything falls apart sometimes
But we keep going keep staying Alive
I’m sorry I can’t do drugs with you anymore
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A new timeline a different curse
Each go around is getting worse
Look around try not hurt myself
Realize I’m Alone in the multiverse
I feel like everyone is a telepath
Reading minds and talking smack,
I see you driving round in your hurst
Are you alone in the multiverse?
Are you a villain I can’t really tell
I mean heroes wear masks as well
Freaks just trying to help the world
But they’re still alone in the multiverse
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i thought it was the end of days
but it appeared that I’m only halfway
just so we are on the same page
i never really considered getting older before now
I’m getting closer to the average age
that most trans women have been killed or just passed away
i think I’m going to try it out and stay, here
I never really considered a future before now
my body looks different but its not strange
I’m learning how to enjoy the change
i love you more and more with the passing of each day
i never really considered forever before now
before now i was broken
i take full responsibility of my past
i work hard to show you
that I’m more than just a measure of good vs bad
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do you have a good heart
does it pump blood good?
i wanna believe that the hype is true
i wanna see the good things that you do
but what makes a man start
setting fire to their own life
tell me what is the difference between the truth
and your beautifully crafted lies
you were saying things that were upsetting to me
i got worked up and said something
you quickly claimed that it was a personal attack
i was just interested in why you were saying that
do you have a good heart
does it pump blood good?
i wanna believe that the hype is true
i wanna see the good things that you do
but what makes a man start
setting fire to their own life
tell me what is the difference between the truth
and your beautifully crafted lies
what you were doing was upsetting to a lot of ppl
you were hurting people so i said that you were hurting people
i used words to describe the actions that repeatedly occurred
I’m just interested in why you are doing that
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I can look you in the eye
You can crack me right open
I am here two feet on the ground
We will make through
You are such a vision
You’ve grown into yourself
You’ve stuck with me
Through this special type of hell
I know I love you
You’re my only truth
Real love it isn’t fun sometimes
Real love it isn’t always glamorous
Real love is hard work
Work I love and long to do
With you
For you
For us
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So much poison in the world
I pick it up and put inside myself
I turn inward and Attack redirects my hurt,
Safer than accidentally harming anyone else
Was I made this way?
Or do I just enjoy pain?
Just to feel something
To feel anything
The body decays a Work of art
Irregular beat from a broken heart
It’s a shame the most vivid dreams of had,
are all of being very dead
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If life is a test I failed every step
You can read in on my face read it on my lips
May the body I leave be puzzle to you
Finally understand me, read the cues,
Ignore the world
ignore yourself
You create your own world of hurt
I don’t wanna bounce around being a burden anymore
I’m sick being another lost boy
Is there a time when we all start to grow up?
Looking after yourself is not giving in
Ignore the world
ignore yourself
You create your own world of hurt
You can grow
If you want,
Plz don’t stay the same,
If it breaks your heart.
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im full of love
for you
but not myself,
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released May 15, 2018